#108 and Ponders on Aging Gracefully…

Well, yeah.  That is the hope.  I’ve been pondering aging.  Not just any aging but my own.  It is amazing how fast time flies.  I was just in my twenties the other day, suddenly I find myself being forty four!  I was just pregnant a few years ago.  Then, I had a little boy, dependent upon us to adequately care for his every need.  Now, I have a 12 year old boy.  He does so many things independently.  At one point, ten years seemed so long but now they are but a blink of the eye!  There are many things that point this out daily.  However, there are also so many contradictions to what I used to think that it is hard to decide whether life is passing by rapidly or slowly or at light speed. 

It is interesting that once forty four seemed so old, and 10 years seemed so long yet I feel good, even great.  Possibly better than ever.  So odd.  Old, or young.  I am now both.  I guess everyone is both for a surprisingly long period of time.  I actually like feeling “old”.  For me right now that means calm, relaxed and thoughtful.  I guess it would only be honest to add that at times, really frequently, often, mostly, occasionally,  I feel what I felt back when I was a teen – confused, lost, dumb, dorky and awkward!  Haha!  I guess I once thought that I would feel confident and smart all the time or even most of the time.  Instead, while I do feel confident, smart and beautiful some of the time, I feel pretty dorky pretty often!  Retrospectively, I guess I feel more confident and comfortable with myself than when I was a kid but not as significantly as I had anticipated.  I really thought someday I’d know everything… how is that possible?  I know a lot but NEVER anything close the everything!!  Maybe it is realizing that you are a dork and not continuing to think you know it all (as I did and as I see teens doing today).  Hmmm…

How is aging going for you?  How do you feel?  Physically and mentally, because they are obviously very different.  Duh!

~ Denise

PS A Mother’s Day post with all my news will pop up tomorrow!  Hope yours was as good as mine!!