Oh, for goodness sake….

Yes, I have been BUSY for the past two weeks.  There are so many things going on that I am stressed out.  Marek, Marcus and I are all actually a bit worn down these last couple of weeks.  Marcus is working extra hours because he is short an employee (hoping to hire by June) and Marek and I have just been continuously moving at home and school for the last couple of weeks.  It is all good stuff but it is still slightly overwhelming.  So… sharing my whines and some awesomeness as well!

This weather is driving me insane!  I know I’m not the only one but seriously, first it goes from the 40’s to the mid 80’s and now back to the 30’s with sleet and snow.  UGH!! 

Happily, the horrible weather will allegedly be gone by Sunday!  Whoopee!

I started physical therapy.  This is both good and another thing to squeeze into the ultra crazy May schedule.  She seems to have a theory and an intervention so I’m optimistic that it will make a difference.  The down side is fitting in twice a week and doing the exercises at least three additional days.  I really want this to work. 

I am motivated to get back on the work out routine after this last overflowing weekend is past.  By next Monday, there will be no track and no confirmation – two things that have been filling our time!  I am hoping to hit the trails and the bike (slower and shorter) as soon as possible!

I am dissatisfied by many aspects of the educational process to  which we are subjecting our children, some seem to be district specific but many are fairly generalized.  Endless busy work and memorization work in the name of rigor and collegiate preparation.  Boo!  Someone somewhere teach, emphasize upper level reasoning, critical thinking and problem solving!  I could go on and on about this subject but I won’t! 

I am tired of being the 4H leader and wish I could just be a project leader.  I love the teaching parts of 4H and wish that I could focus and find the time to do more direct project oriented teaching.  I have committed to one more year but it will be a transition year which is a good thing.  I hope it goes well.  Even when I am ready to let go it is hard for me to not control… ha! 

Lastly, I am continuing to be worried about Java.  She is at least 14 years old, almost 15 and is steadily breathing heavily.  She has some type of seizure last Sunday afternoon.  It was a beautiful day and we were loving the outdoors.  She did her usual lounging while I gardened but while Marcus was working with the tractor to move my mulch, she chased a truck.  She wasn’t running full out and it is something she loves… but on the way back to our yard she fell and seemed to seize for a few seconds.  I ran to her and held her.  I thought it was the end.  Marcus caught up and we talked to her and stroked her while she was unresponsive and then, suddenly, she was back.  I picked her up and carried her to the house.  We got her some cold water and soon, she stood up then walked… she has been fine since.  Weird.  I am just happy that we can allow her to continue to do the things she loves.  Today we walked a couple of miles and she was great.  Weirder. 



I have not had time to focus on self care for awhile and I am ready.  I know Marek and Marcus are ready as well. 

Really, there are many whines that come over me each day.  Happily, I don’t dwell on them and for the most part, I forget what they are!  That seems like a sign to focus on the positive and let go of the negatives!  I’ll keep moving on that!  Hope you are holding on to all that is good in each day!